Martha…

Nope, she’s not born yet. She’s not even close according to the doctor today. I had to go in for a non-stress test today, now that she’s two days past d-date. He said it didn’t look like anything was happening, but he told me that with second babies, its pretty common for the body to get into gear real quick so he said to still expect her any day. For those of you who don’t know, Noa was 2 weeks late and I had to be induced because I wasn’t going into labor. I am getting the feeling that that may happen this time as well, though I would be very grateful to not have to be on pitocin again. I am thankful that for now, even though they think she’s close to 4 kg, my doctors are content to let me wait it out. They haven’t really told me at what point they would want to induce. They are very pleased with how healthy we both are and are very encouraging.
Its funny because last time I was overdue, every day really felt like the end of the world. I remember crying a lot and despairing that there might not even be a baby growing in my belly. God has been very gracious this time to give me much more peace about an overdue baby. When I look back, I see God’s good timing in when Noa was born and I am excited to see when he will bring little Martha. In the meantime, he has given me a precious little Noa-girl who I can’t seem to get enough of these days (I think I’m having pre-separation anxiety, knowing I’ll be away from her when Martha’s born). Now I am almost completely free of my regular commitments since last week (except for one English class), so I have so much sweet time with her at home and it really has been a blessing. She’s learning and growing so much every day – with new words, phrases, abilities – that each moment is a treasure. If God gives me another 2 or 3 weeks waiting for Martha, I would be very thankful for those extra moments of just me and Noa. After all, it won’t be just the two of us all day long ever again (sniff sniff).
Granted, its hard to sleep and the discomforts of pregnancy grow exponentially with each passing day (I know why God made gestation to be 9 months, and not more). And, I had sorta had my mind set on a February birthday (Martha’s would be the first in my family). Also, Eric doesn’t like the feeling of having life on hold and every plan we make be tentative because we’re not sure if we’ll have a newborn tomorrow or not. So there are great pluses to her being born soon. Who knows, really? I’m just thankful that God does and that he has each of our best mapped out in his perfect plan. That is something that I really can’t cry about, can I?

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